![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
(no subject)
Jun. 12th, 2013 10:40 pmIt's becoming one of those weeks, I fear.
Not so long ago, my ex girlfriend and I started talking again- we had gone silent for a while due to a host of factors, and part of it was me trying to get my shit together and patch up my heart enough to start looking again. Well, the patching happened in a way that made me think I didn't need anyone, and then we started talking and it's like the dam burst again. Turns out a year and some change isn't enough to convince me I'm not still enamored with her. And while we've both said we'd like to give it another go, I have my concerns.
I don't care if people know, really, except for the fact that I work in a more conservative office than my previous job and no one there knows that I don't actually like guys for all they talk about trying to find me a boyfriend. So telling them is not exactly high on my list of priorities. Still, it's getting to a point where I'm starting to think I'm looking lovesick, and really, I am. I don't want to explain that mess to them.
The other concern is how do I get an answer about what we are, are we still just friends, does she seriously want to get back together, do I need to ask her out this time and how the fuck do I even go about that, just. Typical 'girl likes girl, how does this work' questions, I guess. I'm stupidly shy contrary to how I might come across, so asking her out is bound to be awkward and I've just been delaying this sort of talk really.
Like I said, one of those weeks.
Not so long ago, my ex girlfriend and I started talking again- we had gone silent for a while due to a host of factors, and part of it was me trying to get my shit together and patch up my heart enough to start looking again. Well, the patching happened in a way that made me think I didn't need anyone, and then we started talking and it's like the dam burst again. Turns out a year and some change isn't enough to convince me I'm not still enamored with her. And while we've both said we'd like to give it another go, I have my concerns.
I don't care if people know, really, except for the fact that I work in a more conservative office than my previous job and no one there knows that I don't actually like guys for all they talk about trying to find me a boyfriend. So telling them is not exactly high on my list of priorities. Still, it's getting to a point where I'm starting to think I'm looking lovesick, and really, I am. I don't want to explain that mess to them.
The other concern is how do I get an answer about what we are, are we still just friends, does she seriously want to get back together, do I need to ask her out this time and how the fuck do I even go about that, just. Typical 'girl likes girl, how does this work' questions, I guess. I'm stupidly shy contrary to how I might come across, so asking her out is bound to be awkward and I've just been delaying this sort of talk really.
Like I said, one of those weeks.